Tonight I can't sleep. I m going to be exhausted tomorrow. I had a nose op yesterday and perhaps this sis the side effect from the annesetic or the medication.
Anyway my polyp is gone. I can breath and smell. Although all the smells are not pleasant.
As I was lying on my hospital bed yesterday waiting to go into theater I wondered why I need to go through this experience. I believe every thing in life has a reason for happening. I wondered why I could not just be healed and not have to endure the pain that lay ahead - although it has not been as bad as I thought it would be.
I remember reading about the law of economy. Which goes something like God wants us to do as much as we can for oursleves and will only step in when we have no other means or a miracle is required. He might lead us to the thing we need to do.
Imagine if every person could do miracles like fly, man would never have learnt to built and aeroplane or car. He would not have learnt about gravity and all the early laws of science we are subject to.
If no man had ever broke a leg no one would have figured out how to fix it.
If we did not have medical problems then we would never have learnt to solve them.
We need opposition to grow and learn. Like the scripture says there needs to be opposition in all things.
Another thing I have come to believe is that things that happen to us are symbolic.
I have been trying to declutter my home and my life and become more organised. I see the fruits of this slowly coming about. Today I came to a realization that decluttering is getting rid of things that are stifling me. making it so I can't breath.
Having this operation is another step to letting go of the clutter. It might me inside my head, but it is clutter and represents the clutter in my home and life. I am far from finished with the decluttering, it is a long hard struggle for me but I am getting there. For me, my family and my health
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